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Hello ducklings!

Explaining myself: In my previous letters I said I have 3 fears. A fear of flowers, a fear of seaweed and a fear of libraries.

Flowers: My fear of flowers stems (haha) from when I was a child. At the dinner table I'd sit at the end and when we would eat dinner mum would push the flowers down my end so that everyone can see each other when eating. However that meant that the flowers were sitting infant of me/ towering over me cause I was small and also its flowers. I would fear them looking at me, but worse, I would fear if they fall into my food. I love food. So it comes from that and I also think it lowkey may come from the barbie fairytopia trilogy cause the flowers in that movie are just creepy. I can appreciate some flowers from a distance but I cannot be close to them. I get the heebie-jeebies. The ones I absolutely cannot stand are flowers with a middle, sun flowers are the worst, followed by gerberas, it's just creepy. im ok with baby’s breath and ferns and stuff but not actual flowers.

Seaweed: Seaweed I feel like is the most normal out of the three fears. its like the brushing feeling on your legs and the uncertainty of if its a jellyfish or seaweed and then you overthink and it starts getting itchy and then you're like i’m gonna die because I got stung and its poisonous... i’m not dramatic. anyways but you get my point and theres different types of seaweed too like you've got the normal one, the bubbly one, the ones in massive clunks, the thin and thick ones, need I go on? you get the idea, I don't like it.

Libraries: yeah ok I admit this one is weird and it's actually not classed as a phobia but rather known as library anxiety. summed up I just cannot go into a traditional library, I can't sit still, I can't be quiet, I get very agitated and can't focus. I can't explain it, it only applies to traditional libraries though cause I have been to a few libraries that I don't get impacted by this feeling and they're usually the more modern ones that you can talk in and what not.

Prank?: So last week’s newsletter had a bunch of new people on the emailing list and, I admit, last week’s letter was full of grammatical errors cause it was written a bit last minute. And you know me, I pre-warned all of you when you signed up - unless someone signed you up - that these letters are gonna have incorrect grammar mainly cause i’m not bothered to type correctly and if auto correct fails then you have to understand me but also cause I do not proof read - also cause i’m not bothered. anyways I got a call from a random number, then a message saying they'd like to discuss my grammar and word choices cause it wasn't English essentially. kinda got creeped out by this cause who’s got my number and I don't have theirs. I was too socially awkward to ask them so then we just had a conversation with me responding vaguely and not giving away that I didn't know them. I ended up getting my friend to call them up and getting them to say the name when they answer. turns out it was her sister. her whole family decided to play a prank on me. great prank but caused a bit of stress.

IT BURNNSSS: I had my first scotch last week. They told me to have it straight but then when I was going to the bar to get one a bunch of others put in their order for me to get and they all got it on the rocks so I got ice too. WOWZA that is strong stuff. I’m surprised at the people who drink that regularly and that the lining of their stomach isn't gone or their liver hasn't given out yet cause my god I think I felt it through my whole body. At one point before I went for a sip I subconsciously blew on it cause it was hot. I didn't think about it I just did it and immediately realised and thought I am an idiot. I think the thought process was if I blew on it, it would burn less, for those wondering it didn't work.

X-POSED: X-POSED is in 3 weeks people stop procrastinating and buy tickets here:

TICKETS

ok I posted a TikTok about me realising that barbie is the actor for all the old barbie movies and its gotten over ½ a million views and 200+ comments telling me this is common knowledge. I’M SORRY. I don't pay attention to films and I also WATCHED THESE AS A CHILD. - I still watch them now but only a select few that don't have her explaining a story at the start or her actually being herself in the movie.

On the same note of TikTok - I've been quite annoyed with the people on this platform for the last few days - I posted a video of a butternut pumpkin on my work TikTok. TELL ME WHY IT ONLY ATTRACTED NORTH AMERICAN PEOPLE WHO ARE ALL COMMENTING THATS A SQUASH. its bloody not a squash its a butternut pumpkin. it is clearly labeled in the video as a butternut pumpkin. I think i’m being rage baited.

In amazing news, I finally completed all the levels for a second time on Mario Kart with all gold cups. it looks amazing on the screen. two more profiles to go and my god I don't know if I have it in me cause the amount of rage I get from this game... I think a very common trend in this letter is rage. im full of rage. maybe I should go to a smash room or smth or go to an abandoned hill and scream. why haven't I been doing those instead of going to the gym?

Thanks for going, BR3E

ps. feel free to comment on these newsletters with any book recommendations, places to visit, things to try or things you want my opinion on because I can be very opinionated.

also guys idk what happened to the 3 image things the websites changed formatting and it isn't allowing me to do what i usually do and as you read earlier, rage quitting is the key so just deal with it bye.